Post-Performance Review Shift

As mentioned in A Negative Performance Evaluation, I was given a shift (on Thursday) to show "improvement." The night before, I was extremely stressed about it and constantly reminded myself to do exceptionally well or else I'll lose my job. At work, I was given a task to reprice an entire section of figurines according to a huge list. At first, I stared in awe and thought "I must finish this FAST!" Things fell and eventually one broke. Although I didn't get penalized, the broken figurine acted as a wake-up call. I shouldn't rush like that. Instead, I should do it at my regular pace and that's what I did. I ignored everyone around me and didn't greet customers like I usually did. Eventually, the section was complete and worked on another task. Soon, my shift was over and got feedback. I was told that I did a good job, concentrated on my given task and blah, blah crap.

I'll still be closely watched in upcoming shifts and if anything happens, I'll be damned for sure. I guess I should be more relaxed about it, knowing what's really going on (of which I'm too lazy to describe, for now at least). According to mom (and it's a bit obvious), they're searching for an excuse to rid me. If I do get terminated, they'll loose a diligent employee.

Meanwhile, I'll continue job-hunting and earn as much as I can before school starts. I guess I should keep my hopes up.

A Negative Performance Evaluation

It's only hours since the appointment, but somehow my memory seems so blurry. Am I trying to avoid it or am I not ready to evaluate the discussion? Whatever the reason, this is what happened...

While getting ready, there was an instant when I wanted to bail. However, after a final thought, I quickly made my way there. It turned out to be a performance evaluation and a bucket of negative comments was thrown in my face. I wasn't productive enough and didn't contribute as much as I should to the store. There were also complaints from my co-workers regarding my poor performance and how frustrated they were with me. Apparently, they didn't tell me directly to my face because they "weren't in the position to do so." Nonetheless, the performance review acted as, like strike one in baseball, a first warning. If my performance doesn't improve, there will be another talk (strike two) and a final one with someone from head office, of which would lead to immediate termination. In the end, I was told that I'm given a single shift to show immediate improvement or else a second warning will fall. Is one shift really enough to show anything of any kind? What should I do? Can anyone tell me?

It's sad that, instead of giving me honest critiques, they decided to complain about me and have it all thrown at my face like this. We occasionally joke with each other, but this is what they did behind my back. Am I really that bad? Should I start fresh with a new job or continue to struggle to keep this one? What can be done?

What Can I Do Now?

Since my manager left, I've only been given a single 4 hour shift on Sundays and it's definitely not what I want. I've already changed my availability to show that I'm able to work throughout the week, but still no change. I've spoken to my assistant manager twice that I wanted more shifts, but she just used petty excuses and lies like "not enough hours to share" when my co-worker had at least 12 hours that week, and "not experienced enough to be on the floor," but seriously, how am I able to improve when I'm not even given the chance to? And now she scheduled an appointment to speak with me tomorrow. About what? I really have no clue. It could be a performance evaluation, or an opportunity to fire me. I don't know and it's really bothering me... What can I do now?