Something to Think About: The Fear of Rejection

Months ago, I watched a MV of a song called "Dōshite Kimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimattandarō?" (Why Did I Fall In Love With You?) by a Korean boy band called DBSK. Just now, I watched it again and suddenly wanted to blog about it. Don't mistaken that I'm going to write how madly in love I am with this song or how much I love their voices (both of which are true). What I'm really about to share are the thoughts that ran through my mind after watching the MV....

The video features a male university/college student falling in love with a girl in his class. They soon become friends and often hang out with the other members of their (friend) group. During all this time, his feelings towards her stayed strong and never faded away - not even after graduation when everyone went separate ways for their careers. However, never did he once tell her how he felt, nor showed it in any manner. One night, the two meet up on a bridge where the girl tells him that she's getting married. It was obvious that she also had feelings for him and hoped that he would finally confess his feelings to her. To her disappointment, he just congratulated her and wished her all the best.

It is due to the fear of rejection that stopped them from telling each other how they felt. It is this fear that costed their chance to be with the one they truly and fully love. Why can't people just open up and directly tell that person how they feel? Why must they hide the truth and end up loving that someone from afar? Doesn't it hurt when you find out that they fall for someone other than yourself?

I know I'm in no position to say these words. But it's because of my past experience that allows me to understand how it feels when your heart is broken....

If that someone rejects you after your confession, wouldn't you feel lighter to finally have the opportunity to let go and move on? What if that someone liked you all along, but was too shy to express it to you as well? If you don't ever tell them, then you both won't have a chance at all. Besides, you'll never know until you try.

Take this as a message to help you wake up from this useless fear. Take this as a motivation to do the things you desire, but fear to expose. Stop the worrying. Stop the constant thoughts. Quit the what-if's and take action.

Before you regret it....

So Far, It May Turn Out Bad!

In my previous entry titled as "So Far So Good" I mentioned that Teresa was not in any of my classes so far. Unfortunately, that might change. Just now, I just made some adjustments with my timetable and that means the reopening of the gruesome posibility of having Teresa in any one of my classes! All I can really do is shake my head and hope the worst won't happen...

...will it?

A New Haircut!

Yes, I got another haircut and this time, it's slightly different from the one I had two months ago!

It was quite last minute as I got it cut yesterday when the salon was about to close. Mom loved it and said it looked great on me. (What mother wouldn't say that anyways?) I thought so myself too until I saw my reflection this morning. Maybe it's because (in my mind) it looked similar to the hairstyle Teresa wore last year. Either way, I think I look hideous with it.

For now, I'll just keep in mind that my hair would grow back and might look different by then...or take a picture of myself and see if my closest friend likes it too (though I do have doubts).

An hour and forty-five minutes before my next class....

So Far So Good!

Well...just finished my first class after the summer holidays!! Came to class on time and didn't get lost!! (I"m so proud of myself!! XD) So far, the worst fear has not happened YET! Althogh I am starting to feel a little more confident about Teresa being in my class(es). Who cares if she's in my lab class. So what? Although I do have to say, if I do have to partner-up with her, chaos will prevail. That I'm definitely not looking forward to (I'd rather die than to have THAT happen...well maybe not death...but you know what I mean!)

Class won't start until two and a half hours from now....

A Little Worry...

Wow... It's been a month since my last post. I guess I've been quite busy with work and to tell the truth, I have!

I can't believe school is going to start in three days from now. Compared to last year, I don't really have much worries. Well, maybe one. I'm actually worried that Teresa would be in one (or more) of my lab classes and that I may end up working with her (as partners) in all of my lab experiments! You may find it a bit silly (if not stupid), but with the things that happened between us last year, there is no way I can stop myself from worrying.

I can't even have a normal conversation with her, how are we going to work with each other? What kind of chaos would appear if that does happen? Just the thought of it makes me shiver.

I can't wait until the first week of school and know what to expect. If she does happen to be in my lab class(es), I promise I'll post every detail (hopefully I won't have to).