Exams Are Finally Over!!

Yesterday was the last day of exams!! After five sleepless nights of hardcore studying, I can finally rest!! My plans for now: give myself some proper sleep, and find a part-time job!!

To celebrate the end of exams, we went to Pacific Mall. We originally wanted to go to downtown, but a few of us (including myself) needed to return home (or to the school to clear our lockers) by six. Since there wouldn't be enough time, Pacific Mall was our final choice! We had lunch at a Vietnamese restaurant outside the mall and a few of us weren't completely impressed by the food. After our not-so-lovely meal, we entered the mall and our fun began!

First, we went into a store where you can take pictures of yourselves with a wide selection of awesome backgrounds. I have to say, the booth (where the pictures are taken) was a little small for six people to fit in. Trying to fit everyone in the picture was not an easy task, but we managed quite nicely and had so much fun! Next, we took pictures against a glass wall of posters of Asian actors and singers. A few of us (including myself) almost drooled over one of them! We continued walking around the mall and took pictures along the way - we even took a picture with a giant lollipop! Before leaving, we got some bubble tea and allowed our feet to rest while we finished our drinks.

I went to Friend A's (from "The Events So Far" entry) place to help her with a problem she had. Although I didn't do much, the problem was solved. After that, we went to the school and cleared our lockers. It was until then that I realized the school year was officially over. So much has happened during this time frame. From getting accustomed to my classes to meeting new people, from making new friends to having a fight with one of them, from ending a friendship to getting over him. As I glance over the clock, bout three hours ago, another friend has left Toronto. That friend is Friend A. A few weeks ago, she told us that she would be going to study in Regina, and perhaps stay there. Originally, I thought she was joking until she told us that she got the tickets for her trip shortly after her announcement. I still can't believe she's going there. It's more or less like a countryside, and as a city girl, she's not likely to like it there. Besides, she's going alone and taking a lot of luggage with her (too much for her to handle). Although school's going to start in September, giving her enough time to explore her new environment, she's still on her own. So what she has a friend there? How much help will that friend offer? I hope she'll be fine, have lots of fun there and make lots of new friends. I wish her all the best!

Finally Letting Go...

Earlier today, I suddenly thought of him and finally realized one thing...we are more suitable to be just friends. Why did I come to that conclusion? Perhaps I will explain in further detail in one of my future entries (we'll see). Now that I have finally let him go, I can now concentrate on something of more importance: exams. Yes, that's right - exams! I have four exams scheduled within three days of next week: two on Monday and one each on Tuesday and Wednesday. This means I need to STUDY and earn a good mark (hopefully) in all of my courses! Wish me luck!

Can't Believe It's Coming to an End

I still don't understand why Teresa's still onto me. After classes ended in the afternoon, I went to the bus stop and saw her there waiting for the bus. I kept my distance away from her until the bus came. Not knowing that she takes the same bus (if I did, I would have stayed behind), I walked past her towards it. When she called me, I didn't respond. Then, she called me once more and tapped on my shoulder to get my attention. That small gesture made me pissed immediately. (Mind you, she doesn't like anybody touching her, not even a small tap, and yet she touched me. How ironic!) I turned my head, and said F-off (Don't misunderstand, I didn't say the word, just the letter 'F'). While I took the transfer, she asked, "Why are you doing this to me?" Calmly, I answered, "Hmm, I wonder." To that, she said, "Why are you doing this to me? I don't deserve this." With an unfriendly smile, I simply asked, "Really?" and sat on the seat near the exit (at least a meter away from her), my back towards her. "I already said I'm sorry, so I don't owe you anything" is all she said, though she did sound a bit pissed (at me maybe?).

So, Teresa's saying that by simply apologizing, I should let go of that insult she gave me? Come on, she can't be serious! That insult ripped my dignity and she thinks she doesn't owe me anything? Even if hers' is removed, it won't erase my loss, nor would I feel any better. After a simple argument (refer to "The Events So Far" entry), she's still not willing to talk to friend A. If she can't let go of something that small, why does she expect me to forget the insult? Honestly, the argument is nothing compared to the insult, and don't forget about the countless "mean" jokes she's said to me (refer to "Should I? Or Should I Not? entry). If I didn't have a nosebleed half an hour earlier, I would have lost my temper right there and then. Luckily for her, I kept myself as calm as possible to prevent any further bleeds. Besides, there's no need to become upset and ruin my day.

Anyways, enough about Teresa. I can't believe that my first year at college is actually coming to an end. It's closer than you think (at least for my classmates and myself) because I have a Chemistry lab exam tomorrow afternoon. I remember talking to a friend about my worries for college during the summer holiday. I was afraid I wouldn't survive the first month and was extremely anxious about the tests and assignments that would be given in my class. I remember her telling me that I'll do fine and that my worries are a waste. She also added that I'll look back wondering why I was so worried. Well, she is half right. I did do pretty nicely in my classes, but there are lots of rooms for improvement. However, I'm not too confident about the coming exams nor am I for the following 2-3 years. Hopefully she's right. What I'm also worried is whether I'll be able to find a job when I graduate. Looking at the economic crisis we're experiencing, there's no way I cannot worry about the future. Besides, I'm still jobless.

No one can control what the future unfolds, nor can they foretell the events that are waiting to happen. I suppose we just have to wait and see with strong hopes in our hearts.