Job Availability...

For the past few days, I've been doing a little job hunt (since I'm not getting very few shifts). Last night, I asked Proj. G on MSN if he found a job since he already graduated from the program in April. Apparently, he applied to numerous companies, but none replied yet. I took a look in various job sites to find very little job postings related to my program and slowly started to wonder if I'll find a job after I graduate next year. Perhaps it's because my program's really specific or the positions aren't normally found in regular job sites. Either way, I hope things aren't as bad as I imagine.

Hopefully he'll get a reply soon and that I'll find a well-paying part-time job as well! Good luck to everyone else who are looking for a job too!!

Job Security?

It's been a while since my last entry - I suppose I got too lazy to even turn on my computer. (Yes, it's possible to survive without using your computer for a month, and I'm proof!)

Nothing special happened for the past month until last week Monday. That morning, I found out that the store manager left the position and was shocked. Surely it wasn't of her free will since she dropped by the day before, cheerfully as usual, to pick up something. She has worked for the company for many years and dedicated her life towards it. She would stay way past her shift if the store's busy and would come by voluntarily to help out on her days off. She was really nice and would help you in every way possible. Of course, she would set you straight if you're doing something incorrectly, but that's her job: to keep the store running smoothly and properly. She even visited yesterday to see how we were doing. There was no way she would resign from the position, it's just not possible.

And, I was right.

It turned out that she got fired for reasons I don't wish to know of. It's so cruel. How can the company remove a dedicated employee just like that? Didn't they have second thoughts? Had they any doubts? I hope they'll regret for their loss and they fully deserve it, though it's pretty unlikely. I hope she'll find another job soon and live on happily. Some things just needs to be forgotten...

Next week is my one-year anniversary since I started and this sort of thing had to happen. I guess it's true, there is no job security in Canada.

Song of the Week!

Here's a short trip down memory lane! This week's song is "This I Promise You" by *NSYNC! I'm pretty sure this song will bring back memories, especially for those from the 90's!

Hope you'll like the pick of the week!

Temporary Normality...

With an apology, things seems to be back to "normal." I'm not sure for how long this normality would continue, or how soon the next outburst is. All I hope for is stability so I can continue to fully concentrate on my studies. Besides, I'm sick and tired from all the drama. I only want peace and quiet, if that's not too much to ask for...

It Doesn't Make Any Sense...

Just now, mom called me in to have a "talk" of which started with "What are you going to say to me? Are you going to apologize?" Through our little talk, I learned that I'm the one who made her tell me to move out, that I'm the one who made her say "You're no longer my daughter" to me. Does this make any sense at all?!

Seriously, I don't get her. With my obvious frustration over the topic and from what happened last night, I didn't bother to "appear" polite and mask whatever's in my mind. So, the talk didn't end nicely, with her constantly saying that I was rude to her and that I'm the one who wants to move out. How ironic! I don't even know what's right and what's wrong in this picture anymore - I can't even think logically for the time being. Furthermore, I don't even care if I'll continue to live with her. My only concern is that I have a roof to live under and a bed to sleep on (but then again, the floor doesn't seem that bad either).

What am I supposed to do? I'm really confused. Should I go back in there and apologize for things I didn't do? Maybe I should. After all, she's still my mother. But somehow, it doesn't feel right...